No new opportunities –
No positive way for escape–
Even your prayers seem overlooked by God.
Yet you are faithful, though God seems to have put your needs on the back burner, you remain faithful.
You see the prosperity of everyone around you, sinners and saint alike, even those in their own foolishness prosper and attain worldly gain. Yet nothing comes to you.
You know this affliction is only for a season.
You know God has not forsaken you;
He is dredging you through the heat of the furnace that He might skim all the impurities of your past.
He has shut every door, and made impotent every resource; He as broken your hopes of rescue from this affliction, and you know for sure that none can save you but Him.
Yet, this is not a test, tests are for men;
His intent is godly. Like a potter, the artist of the universe is massaging you to His desired shape, and fashioning you to His presupposed expectation.
But the work of the potter is painful to the clay. Excruciatingly, the will of God painfully shapes and reshapes the image of you that has brought you so much success up to this point.
Dissecting you like a high school science project, God reveals the hidden parts of your essence, slicing away at your ego, and pride, and self-worth, even to the dividing of your soul and spirit, cutting joints from marrow; He judges the thoughts and attitudes of your heart.
Deeper and deeper you moan with guttural prayers too intense for words; not even realizing that your faith is strengthening in your own hopelessness. Yet the pain which should have ended you, quickens your mortal body.
While each night in tearful prayer you present you arguments before the Judge of the universe; trying to proselytize God of your immediate need for emancipation from these painful and dreadful circumstances.
You cry out from the deepest recesses of your soul
"Help me God! Do something anything my God! Rescue me, I need You right away!" And His quite still voice whispers;
He has not fixed your heart (problem), because He is replacing it with a new one. Though you are exhausted and worn out, God is fueling you with His Spirit. And the person that you once were, is only a shell of the new person He is creating you to be.
Yet you suffer on still trying to know God by His hand, all the while God is trying to show you His face...
and the quite still voice whispers once again, reminding of the confidence you should have already had...